Rules for Life

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Before I went into the Big Sleep of avoidance, addiction, and facade for twenty years—before all that but after the blind complacency of childhood—there was a brief, shining moment of reality. I had, for a moment, a very clear and unconfused sense of what was true and what was not, and a radiant understanding of in what direction I might find even more truth. I was very well-calibrated, and when I was in the presence of bullshit or spewing my own bullshit, I could really feel it down to my toes. During this very brief and potent period—only about age…

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On 2018

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2018 finds me back here, “rebranded” simply as myself. I can’t sustain anything else. Every attempt I ever make to create some kind of brand just feels like I’ve always felt when I try to play dress-up—inconsistent, ill-fitting, inauthentic. I’ve been working a lot lately from the following premise: we don’t actually have to do anything to “create” our persona or our “brand” or any aspect of our character. It’s all there for us, perfectly arranged and waiting, like the code inside of an acorn (shoutout to my main man James Hillman and all my Jungian peeps.) Life is simply…

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The Chain of Emotional Addiction

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We lurch through life, most of us, in the grip of emotional addiction after emotional addiction. Indeed, we build our lives around (and with) these addictions. We choose relationships and forge bonds that support and enable them. We avoid situations and circumstances that “trigger” us in order to preserve them, or if do get into a situation where we feel triggered, we deploy manipulative or demanding behaviors like anger, neediness, and control—whatever tools we have at our disposal to avoid feeling the reason we created the addiction in the first place. Daily life, through the law of attraction—the real law…

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The Truth of the Moment

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Most of us who have been on a serious spiritual path for any amount of time “know” that all of our suffering is the result of wanting things to be other than how they are. True peace, we have been taught again and again, comes with deep acceptance of “the present moment.” We repeat these maxims to ourselves and replicate them in infinite Instagram memes even though very few of us actually know what they actually mean—let alone how to implement them in daily life. But isn’t “wanting things to be other than what they are” really just another way of…

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Just Say No To The Hustle

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We lurch through life, most of us, in the grip of emotional addiction after emotional addiction. Indeed, we build our lives around (and with) these addictions. We choose relationships and forge bonds that support and enable them. We avoid situations and circumstances that “trigger” us in order to preserve them, or if do get into a situation where we feel triggered, we deploy manipulative or demanding behaviors like anger, neediness, and control—whatever tools we have at our disposal to avoid feeling the reason we created the addiction in the first place. Daily life, through the law of attraction—the real law…

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2018 Announcements

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First of all, I will be posting my channeling and Tarot reading for 2018 in the next week or two. If you would like to receive a notification when that (or anything else) has been posted, please sign up for my mailing list at the bottom of the page. I won’t spam you or try to sell you anything, ever. I have also started moving my posts to private/direct link only after they have been up for a bit, so if you want to be sure not to miss anything, do consider signing up on the mailing list. Especially since…

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The Exclusion Fractal

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Something has been brewing for the last several years, and it has really come to a fever pitch over the past twelve months of Trumplandia. And I think it has everything to do with what we’ll be dealing with in 2018. I’m calling it the exclusion fractal. It has emerged and is reproduced in the echo chamber of social media. And it exists on “both sides”–it is not confined to any one ideology or political affiliation. And it’s bad freaking news. The basic animating energy of the exclusion fractal is that recognition, love, inclusion, and status are allocated in accordance…

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Predation, Rage, and the Dark Side

Predation, Rage, and the Dark Side

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If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you. —Gospel of Thomas Since the Weinstein news broke last month, and over the course of the last few weeks of steady accusations and revelations, I have come to feel very viscerally the lure of the dark side. I have surrendered to my own desire to profit from the suffering and oppression of others—because those others are really shitty men who deserve Bad Things, according to me….

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Saturn Into Capricorn: This Was The Easy Part

Saturn Into Capricorn: This Was The Easy Part

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Today, we learned Charlie Rose—beloved “progressive” PBS personality and host for nearly thirty years is also a giant freaking perv. No fewer than eight women have come forward with allegations about his repugnant behavior, including groping and flashing. PBS moved quickly to fire Rose, who responded with the kind of statement that has become extremely typical of all these cases: “I didn’t realize they didn’t like it. I thought they were into me. I feel very embarrassed.” Well, newsflash: they weren’t into you. They never were. You wanted to believe they were, and convinced yourself they were, but you were…

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